8.17.2015

"God doesn't give you more than you can handle"

First of all, that is one of the lies we as humans try to soothe ourselves with!

Like you, I have heard this phrase my whole life...when times are hard and difficult and unfair.  

The truth is...God DOES give us more than WE can handle...but He DOES NOT give us more than HE can handle.  That's they key difference. 

Some others you may have heard..."It builds character" or "it can only make you stronger"

Wrong!! Our relationship with God builds our character and only He can give us the strength to endure such heartache and pain.  

It is only when we become fully reliant on God, hit our knees in need of Him, and give all that we have to our Maker...can we begin to see the "plan for hope, prosperity and good" He has for us.

I am an "I've got this" kinda girl...always been a survivor of things, but I have been rocked to my core this year!!  So much so, my body is failing to keep up with the stress of self-management.

My stress hormones are in overdrive and causing a lot of physical symptoms I pray will go away soon...when a doctor tells you your insulin and cortisol levels are "off the charts" and your adrenal glands are "way past fatigued"..it is time to change most of your coping mechanisms.

We fail everyday, and not one of us can handle life without God being ever-present in every minute detail of our days.

The phrase "Let go and let God" is plastered all throughout my home to remind me of which mindset I need to keep.

I would love to talk to anyone who may be dealing with the loss of a parent or loved one and cannot seem to get a grip on things...if that's you...leave me a comment and a message :)

Many Blessings Ya'll

8.05.2015

Perspective and Grief

"Grief is like an ocean; it comes on waves ebbing and flowing.  Sometimes the water is calm, and sometimes it is overwhelming.  All we can do is learn to swim."
Vicki Harrison

"I loved you at your darkest." Romans 5:8

I have not felt like blogging, much less doing anything else that I had to focus on my feelings lately.  As some of you know, my mom passed away from brain cancer on February 23rd of this year.  It was a short, 9-month battle, and she was literally my only person.

The person I could be truly myself with, be truly honest with, truly real with...each of us have that one person...my mom was it for me!

Over the past few months, the stages of grief have been hard.  I have never really allowed myself to go through anything like this.  Not through divorce, five miscarriages, even the death of my papa who was the only man, until God, that I truly trusted.  

Your prayers and cards and thoughts have been my lifeline alongside my daily walk with Jesus.  Knowing that he will "never forsake or abandon me" is where I reside. 

I always thought, being a woman of God, that knowing my mom is in Heaven would be enough to sustain my joy.  It hasn't been!  I know she is there with God, happy, healthy and watching over me, but my selfish humanness wants her back...even if for only a day.

The pain of losing your person is so encompassing that only leaning on God can make it somewhat ok.  

We have had so many blessings in our lives this year.  We finally moved into our newly built home, have another grandson on the way, and so much more!!

I needed to write this to lay out my feelings and move forward with joy and happiness being a choice I choose first daily...along with the trust and strength I find only in Him.

Again, thank you all for your prayers and thoughts...keep them coming

Many Blessings Ya'll,